Maybe it's the blog of TMI

Because you can't really post personal information on facebook, because then everyone might actually read it!

I need to start writing my blog again, I know this is getting repetitive. But seriously, if i don't blog, I might go crazy because I don't actually ever talk to any of my friends.

Sigh.

So, here's the only thing going on, and I'm just going to say it.

Well, there are many things going on. I'm trying to keep up with my classes in a very impossible semester in which I can't seem to get get up my gumption enough to actually care about keeping up with my classes. This terrifies me. Strikes me as a blast from the past.

I need to listen to more Dolly Parton, it occurs to me. Just randomly.

So, also, I'm in the middle of another miscarriage. Oh yeah! So, three weeks ago I was 5 weeks pregnant, and then I started to miscarry, and GUESS WHAT, I'm still having that miscarriage that began three fucking weeks ago and has been 3 weeks of yucky crampy awfulness. I thought reproducing was supposed to be fun. And the last word is that my pregnancy hormones are actually going up. Who knows what that means? i don't? And guess what, heh, NEITHER does my fucking doctor, but it doesn't mean anything good or not weird, so I have to go in again tomorrow and have my lady parts poked at, and not in a good way.

I'm sorry, TMI? Sympathy. I can't believe you're still reading this anyway. Clearly I'm lonely and sad and taking it out on you. You're the strangers who don't know my phone number, and my friends who(m) I never call. It's not your fault. I'd talk about still trying to lose weight but I've received feedback that no one cares. Blah blah blah.

Okay, going to bed. Have to get up early and head to the doctor for the pokingness. I'm officially a circus freak.

Well...I guess you folks have known that for a while.



ps. I got a 99 on my neuroscience midterm. I guess that's not too sucky.

pss. I'm hoping to get a part time job either at Safeway or as a A/D counselor. Maybe if I have a part time job, I'll stop tooling around wasting my time on facebook.

psss. I also got into a research group, which is essential for getting more experience there. I'm focusing so far on getting into the health psychology track. I'm waiting to hear the results on my application, but one of my professors pulled me aside and said he's "in my court." From which, of course, I only inferred that perhaps someone is *not* in my court.

pssss. My first idea for research is looking at decision making with regards to bariatric surgery. My research advisor recently did a paper on why people decide to get B-surgery, I'd like to look at the reasons people decide NOT to. There's an obesity clinic in town that I'd love to do clincial field work with.


Okay. That's enough for now. I need to go to bed so I can get up early and go give more of my blood to Kaiser and then maybe go to the gym. Maybe.